Sometimes you are so focused on something that you wonder "Am I making a difference?" You usually gett the answers indirectly from your work, most of the time. You can see things change and grow and you can witness how your contribution is making a difference. At least that is how it is suppose to work in my field of Education.
I am definitely one of those "rose coloured glasses" type of people that got into education because I want to change lives. But over the past 4 years the only life I see that is changed is my own. I suppose in many ways that is a good thing. But my desire to make a real difference in the Web has not been realized. It is true I have brought some much needed upgrades to the resources for the school, however; very little has changed in the way things are there.
It is so truly sad to see that students that could do very well are lost in a sea of indifference and lack of desire on everyone's part.
I have always said my time in the Web is temporary and based purely on the whims of the community and whether or not they like you this year. So when my contract was not renewed I was hurt by the cold form letter but not surprised. What did surprise me was the letting go of other seasoned teachers. Those that will not be returning are those that also work at making that difference. Teachers who have been around for a few years like myself and established in our careers. It is sad and unfortunate that the board and community are opting for first year teachers to save a few bucks instead of investing in those established teachers.
I know that they will always operate this way mainly because its the way they have operated since the 1970's when the school was established. Its not an unwillingness to change, just the inability to see that change is what they need.
I will be continuing the blog after I leave the Web, to enlighten any of you that feel they want to teach here. You may change your mind when I turn the very harsh lights up to reveal what really goes on in the Web!
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